Mariane's Narratives

wow loads have happened since i've last updated..

grabe hindi ko man lang nakuwento sa inyo ang mga nangyari sa aking masasama first day na first day pa lang ng march.

well, it's hell month and really, it's making me regret i didn't do shit on this or that, or i didn't allocate my time properly...

oh well, that's just me, can't do nothing bout it...

now, i'm doing a paper about outdoor advertising, its social effects and implications and relationships with language...

i have all my input but i haven't done any editing...

mga 60% complete na, pero the scatterbrain i am, i can't seem to focus on finishing it... thursday seems like a very far deadline (not very, pero far pa rin) pero due to my paranoia that i can't get it done, i unconsciously can't get it done...

hay...

aja!

fuck

it's not working!

i have two papers due next week naman, both 2,000 words long. para sa socio 10 yon and each paper is worth 20% of my grade... i'm trying not to be so overly conscious about my grade pero i have to kasi magshi-shift nga ako... about that shifting, naasikaso ko na ung tcg ko, certifcate of non-major and good moral... mga apat ang kinuha kong copy for all those kasi i have made four choices for shifting: ba journ, ba film, ba socio, ba creative writing...

i've heard na sa may pa yung essay exams for all those kasi nga andameng ginagawa now...

anyway, on to my current ramblings... may isa pa akong paper na due rin this week (sa philo naman iyon) and it's also going to cost me my grade... my current standing in philo is 1.5, luckily baka maging 1.25 dahil sa perfect attendance.. pero gusto kong maka-uno and my lazy prof doesn't want me doing extra load or shit for him... sabi niya galingan ko na lang daw ang last paper para maganda ang grade ko... but the freaking problem is, WHAT IF MY PAPER'S NOT GUD ENUF?!!!

i have a chem 1 special report on tuesday/friday, depending kung mabunot ang group namin, and i still have to memorize (or at least try to) ang buong report namin... no prob naman kasi ako ang gumawa ng presentation... medyo dapat hindi masyadong boring and techinical ang dating ko...

sa friday rin, finals namin sa soc sci 2, ok lang kasi open notes naman... ang winoworry ko ay ang first exam ko sa kanya which i heard is very low... GOD BE GOOD TO ME AND MAKE THAT GRADE AT LEAST 2!

hay

i worry too much no?

well, ganun talaga ako...

btw, i've not attended my nat sci 1 class a lot of times kasi ang dami ko ngang ginagawa... sa 21 ang exam namin run and i wish i will not be taking the finals... di bale sa monday, i solemnly swear i will attend it na... mahirap na baka makarma pa ako...

oo nga pala, sa monday rin ay may report ako sa fil 40 pa rin... ok lang kasi ako rin ang gumawa ng presentation...

hm....

i need a break

and to think i plan to study sa summer

di bale, sandali na lang naman eh...

aun lang...

welcome to my busy life...

hay...

aja!

still not working...

Well, finally tapos na ang Fil 40 report namin. May sense naman ang presentation only that hindi nagamit yung ginawa kong powerpoint. We had to use the barbaric method of posting manila papers. Tapos ka-bad trip, available pala ang matagal na naming pinapareserve na venue for this date and WE DIDN'T FREAKING KNOW!!!!!!! Hay, to add to that, di pa sumipot yung isa naming ka-grupo. Kaya I was forced to report her part. Patience, and self-control are indeed VIRTUES. Niweiz, nag-volunteer na akong ireport yung special topic ko. I'm finally done with it kaya it's ok. 5 minutes ko lang naman idi-idiscuss yun eh. Di bale, tapos na yun. Attended my Nat Sci 1 class finally only to find out na wala na yung prof ko dun. She was sick and all kaya pinalitan siya ng isang uuuuuuuuuuuber boring na prof. She's basically teaching what's in the readings for Nat Sci 1 (chem portion) so kahit na hindi ako mag-attend ok lang. Pero nagui-guilty ako kaya I'll still attend it. Besides, sa Thursday naman ang last meeting. BAHALA NA. BAKA MY KATAMS will strike again. Tomorrow, I do hope matawag na yung group namin para matapos na ang reporting sa Chem 1. I don't want to reread it over and over and over again. No patience. Bukas rin ay tatalakayin namin si Weber and I'm sorta confused kung ano yung work niya na babasahin ko. He's got the Protestant Ethics and capitalism; and The Theory of Economic and Social organization. Walang kuwenta yung readings na nakuha ko sa ANTAS. sobra. Putol pa yung excerpt. BAHALA NA. Kunwari alam ko yun. Makikiride na lang ako sa flow ng discussion. Ayun lamang, sana nagustuhan niyo ang aking bagong layout. Available din ito sa templates site ko. That's all, til next time, tata!

currently revising my fil 40 paper... o di ba finding time to post here... well school stuff pa rin ang ira-rant ko...
finally, natawag na kami sa chem 1 and i was able to report well... i saw line of 9's dun sa evaluation sheet ng group na nireportan ko so i guess i did well...
in my soc sci 2 class, i found out i have a 1.5-2.0 class standing which disappointed me a bit... pero ok lang, i assume well-deserved yun...
sa socio 10 naman, humirit ng 2 papers, both due on March 29. Di bale, by that time, I'm done with all the shit I have to do...
Passed by AS 101 to pass my application form for CAL (BA Creative Writing). I found out na due na sa April 1 lahat ng requirements--meaning kasama ung TCG ko for this sem. Well, I guess I have to force my profs to give me my cards early. Won't be a problem I guess...
Ayun lang, na-share ko lang...
til next time, tata!

actually hindi pa pero bukas na lang and then my 2nd sem is done...
but i'm going to do summer classes kasi i am a good girl who wants to graduate sooner than expected...
i've crsed for math 1 and pe (table tennis/ philippine games), and inaantay ang results ng first round ng crs on friday. kapag di ko nakuha alin don, naku bahala na... basta magm-mst ako at pe...
along the summer classes, i'm also inaasikaso my shifting stuff... sa friday pa lang ang start of application for cssp, (ba socio ang kukunin ko, just in case pde pa ang isa, kukuha rin ako ng ba psych)...
sa ba cw, ewan ko kung matutuloy yun or what kasi anlabo, sa friday na kaagad ang deadline ng lahat eh sa sabado kaya katapusan ng finals...
sa ba film hindi na ako nagtuloy kasi bawal pala na 2 ang course na aaplyan mo sa isang collej...
i'm looking for another back-up course... nakita ko ang bs community dev't and medyo fittting yung curriculum nun for me...
while taking my summer classes, magsu-summer job rin me... tutor sa kapitbahay naming tutorial centre... pero di pa sure yun... pero kung makuha nga ako, mei 1,200 per batang tuturuan ko ako... ::whistles::
sa thursday naman, ire-release ang temporary grades namin for fil 40... sana 1 na yun, kung hindi, ok lang...
tomorrow finals ko sa chem... done reviewing, will review again l8r... tingnan ko na rin tomorow ang results ng nat sci 1 4th exam namin kung meron na...
nakakatawa ng exam na yun... grabe, feeling ko ang baba ko dun... hay, hindi ko na makakamit ang inaasam kong 1.5... ganun talaga...
ayun lang, welcome to my busy academic life...
btw, belated happy easter...
til next time, tata!

ps.
i lurve my avatar, features 2 of my most fave men... hehe

katatapos lang ng chem 1 finals namen...
mehn, kaloka ung last part...
i have to at least get 161 points correct para ma-maintain ang standing ko..
I NEED THAT UNO!!!!!!!!!!
hay...
bahala na...

on lighter news, may ginagawa me na compilation of my poems... so far 50 pages na yun out of target kong 180 pages...
i'm not realyl the best writer pero i try and besides, i like writing more than reading...

done with two nc-17 draco/hermione oneshots.. will post on rs.org if approved...

un lang muna mehn...
til next time!