Mariane's Narratives

well sorry for the lack of updates about my so-called life, been very busy and very lazy this past week. let me take this chance to recap the past week of my horrible life (lol)..
on a side note: i like my new lay, don't you? medyo bright on the eyes nga lang, pero oks na rin no? puntahan niyo naman yung tuts ko saka yung gbook ko ok?
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dec. 1, 2004 aka wednesday
la pasok but i had to go to a lecture by prof. felipe miranda on "greek legacy on critical thinking" at the dept. of eee, pldt multimedia lecture hall 1 for my soc sci 2 class because (note: i am a run-on sentence) my groupmates can't come. ok, i let it pass since i'm the leader and shit. so i went there, around 25 minutes late, because i expected it to start at a later time and i was thinking few people would attend it. stupid me. there were broadcast feeds from different branches of up and people were watching the lecture! the hall was fully-filled, even nemesio l. mendiola was there (dunno if i got his name right). so anyway, i sat on the second row and listened. apparently, i missed the first part of the lecture but it was ok bec. i was able to learn more on the 2nd and last parts. prof. miranda was good and i agree with my soc sci 2 prof's statement that the guy was once a greek in his past life. after that, (it ended at 12) i didn't eat at sm bec. i gave myself too much liberty on that issue already. i went home to realize our ulam was karekare.
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dec.2 and 3 aka thursday and friday
no classes, happy and a little bit sad me. happy coz it's not classes, sad because the two storms have totally blown over the central luzon area. well, it's nature fighting back. man have been so indifferent on its call for a long time and now, it's proclaimed its wrath in the most hurtful way. but, as always, this issue on our environment will eventually die down and pass away because of some multinational-corporation-people money-bribing and stuff. there is no justice in this world
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dec. 4 aka saturday
i think i reread my notes on philo 1 this day and after that, none else
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dec. 5 aka sunday
nagninang ako and a former classmate of mine sa binyag ng family friend namin. cute girl my inaanak. chika galore kami ni classmate (she also studies in diliman, bs archi) and stuff. sarap ng handa. ^_^
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dec. 6 aka monday
well, back to business... para na naman akong lutang na patay na nagco-commute sa quezon ave. unluckily, dumating yung prof kaya binanatan kami ng 100-point quiz and i think i messed up. well, ok lang, bawi na alng sunod. tapos nagpa-assignment to read a whole unit on our book. mga 48 pages lang yun, kaya ayos lang. second time ko ring makagrab ng copy ng kule. love the paper, very journalistic and intelligent, alang sugar coating. maybe i'd send some of my works there (o yabang no?).
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dec. 7, aka tuesday or today
muntik na me malate sa chem class ko. ok lang, bec. our quiz was rescheduled for friday. sa wakas, our group was able to report on soc sci 2, medyo minadali na nga lang. our prof liked our props so i was happy. first exam (take-home) due on jan 11, was an analysis of alfred mccoy's book "an anarchy of families". lintek, 500 pp. yung libro! hay, di bale na... kaya yan. sa wakas rin, pumasok na yung prof ko sa socio 10. he discussed and i participated. feels good to recite. hermione ba?
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ayun lang, bka tomorrow magpost uli me. (sorry for the spelling errors)
til next time, tata!

does she cry
at night
like i do
does she rue
the wasted
moments
like i do
does she pray
to God
to take away
the pain
like i do
does she feign
the smiles
and joy
to cover up
the depression
inside
like i do
does she miss
me and the memoirs
like hell
like i do
does she wish
these never happened
and when she
wakes in the
morning
everything is ok
like i do
does she?
if she does
i would not
want to know
it will hurt
because it's over
she's gone
i'm gone
nothing will change
anymore

nothing much happened today... philo 1 prof of mine dismissed us super early kasi feeling ko tinamad siyang magturo... mei pinaasynment lang ta's alis na.... sinoli ko na yung overdue reserve buk ko... found out na di na ko puwedeng mag-overnyt na buk na reserve... oh well... i spent around 60 pesos para ipaxerox yung mga parts ng buk na di ko nabasa... hay, oc me ngayon... after that, kumain ako ng japanese-in-a-box na beef teriyaki... alang lasa... pero k lang, 40 pesos lang naman eh... fil 40 was held at cal 411 kaya dun me kumain... nag-recite ako! hehe... ewan ko ba, i always feel na pag hindi nagre-recyt ang class kelangan magrecyt ako, bec. i know the answers or have an opinion nman eh... afterwards, sugod ako sa cs audi and late sa nat sci 1 class ko... nakakaiyak na boring one hour ang tinamasa ko there pero ok lang kasi 2:00 dismissed na kami... went home 'fter that and nakatabi ko sa dyip ang isang cutie na nakashades... ambango! ehee... umuwi rin ako agad kasi 60 pesos na lang ang pera ko.... hay, i'm never going to be a good moneyhandler (?)...
i had an inspiration to write some draco/hermione one-shots. one was temporarily titled "cappucino" (did i spell it ryt?)... about draco and hermione meeting after 10 years, sharing coffee and then parting ways. may twist so i don't want to giv it away yet. another is called "vista", from draco's pov looking at hermione from afar, admiring her... plano ka na ring ituloy yung novels ko na nakatiwangwang sa ff.net... someday, someday pag sinipag
that's all, til next time, tata!

not so good day... ang trapik grabe tapos ang init init pa kanina! ang layo pa ng lalakarin ko para sa sakyan ng dyip papuntang up... hay naku... muntik na akong ma-late sa chem class, just to find out delayed ang quiz... oh well... dapat nga di na me papasok sa next two classes para manood ng sine... pero nakunsensya ako,kaya di na lang... my last class (buti na lang hndi ako nag-aabsent sa class niya) told us na every one absence is a .25 deduction sa attendance grade... phew! at least, absent-free ang first few weeks ng second sem ko... nakalimutan kong dalhin ang philo buk na hiniram ko sa klasmeyt ko so galit siya sa akin... i dunno kung as in super galit... pero i'll give it to her tomorrow na lang... muntik na kasi akong malate kaya nawala sa isip ko... last nyt naman hindi ko rin alam kung bakit hindi ko naalalang iprepare... oh well... basta shit talaga araw na ito... so what i did, i ate my flabbergastedness (?) sa mcdo... ayun lang, til next time! tata!

I’ve currently done a one-shot Draco/Hermione fic and I don’t know if I should post it here. I’m kinda shy because it’s an NC-17 ficcie and it’s like I’m only 17. maybe someday I will. For the meantime, magtiyaga muna kayo sa napakakorni kong poem na ito. Kugelmass was from the short story, “The Kugelmass Episode” by Woody Allen (read here: http://www.woodyallen.art.pl/kugelmass_episode.php). Rashomon, short story rin by Ryunosuke Akutagawa . Edmond Dantes of course, from The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas. And Shakespeare’s eternal “Shall I Compare Thee to a Summer’s Day”.


Reason
There’s a reason why Kugelmass
Was a professor of Humanities
And not of Natural Science
Why he was a bald Jew lusting
And not some Tibetan monk fasting
There’s a reason why the old servant
Waited for a break in the rain
At the Rashomon
Why he kept minding his pimple
And not some other business
There’s a reason why Edmond Dantes
Was imprisoned for 13 years
And betrayed by his best friend
Why he chose to be an avenging count
Rather than live in peace
There’s a reason why Shakespeare
Compared his beloved to a summer’s day
And not some other season
Why he disliked the comparison
And defended his arguments
For every story, there is a reason
A motive, a mystery left hanging
For every author it is his/her purpose
To give the story a reason to be
But never state it so obviously

Lust/Hate
Hate it when you
Smirk and cackle
Belittling my
Arguments, yet
Yearning for those
Lips to cover mine
Hate it when you
Leave me wanting
More, craving more,
Lusting for more
Than I can handle
Hate it when you
Drag me out of
My own consent
Pushing your
Fucking demands
Yet desiring your
Body so badly
Hate it when I
Cry like hell like
Now hating your
Why’s and how’s
Knowing I’ll never
Comprehend
Yet wanting so
Much the pretense
I think I’ll go crazy
Not tasting you
Every second my
Blood craves for
You and I hate it
I hate it, I hate it
But this is not love
It is lust filling us both
And it will only feed
On the hatred I feel
This little setup
We have, will
Be more exciting
For every moment
That I hate you
So hate me back
And let the lust
Consume us through


Adrift
Pieces of the past
Form in front of me
A clouded vision,
A forgotten memory
An emissary of pain
A momentary grief
Yet nothing has become
My permanent relief
I ran away blindly
Trying to chase the future
Suddenly, I realized
Today is a past, a failure
Just like so many others
I am in limbo, stuck
Physically, I am here
Mentally the past alludes
To everything I try to erase
Moving on, moving one
There is noting left to choose
Time has gone, time has gone
Where do I stay?
Neither past, neither future
Not even the present time
Floating through dimensions
I am wishing time were mine

well, look hu's back... (tananan... nanna...) i have a reasonable reason (huh?) though... our phone's cable got snagged by some loony thieves and so, for one whole week, i wasn't able to post... also, last week, nawalan kami ng tubig because our area is kinda mataas so the water has difficulty flowing here (conyo ba?)... so eto, recap uli:

dec. 13, monday
da king is in coma. pretty shocking nga kasi between him and my grandma, mas mukhang magfa-fall apart ang grandma ko... mei class pa nito, went early to skul kasi akala ko mei philo class pa me... and besyds, mei kailangan kami i-pass na asynment... turns out hindi papasok ung prof namin... so ayun, i , tracy and another girl klasmeyt passed the asynment to our prof's dept.. we chattered away and i realyzd nice pala ung klasmeyt naming un... mukha kasi siyang suplada eh... tapos nun hangout kami ni tracy sa main lib wer she reread ung grp report nila wyl i daldaled her to the max... i had second tots of going to my next classes pero tracy was able to convince me to stay and attend them anyway... pumunta na me sa next class's room ko nung nag-part ways kami ni tracy kaso nainip me sa boredom... kaya umuwi na me... i mean, i watched national tresure first before going home... dapat iba papanoorin ko kaso nothing else caught my curiosity kaya i settled for national treasure... enjoyable siya, parang da vinci code ang pacing... pero medyo bitin sa huli kasi it leaves you feeling hanging... ta's nun, uwi na me and slept

dec. 14, tuesday
ya i heard, da king is dead. i sort of expected it kasi critical ung coma niya... buti pa siya tahimik na... massive overexposure ng media na naman to... though i understand the media people bec. i expect to be one of them sumday, i do hope na sana maintindihan nila na overcoverage is not necessarily good coverage... niweiz, i had my chem quiz today, medyo namental block ako sa ibang questions... hopefully tama ung mga sagot ko... after that, deretso ako sa next class ko, na to my disappointment and happiness, e suspended... i don't quite remember what happened next... basta umatend rin ako ng socio 10 class ko tapos umuwi na ako

dec. 15, wednesday
ala ng pasok, technically kasi ala naman talaga akong pasok ngayon.. inasikaso ko ata yung fic ko na sept. 5 ko pa unang inumpisahan...

dec. 16, thursday
OBLATION RUN!!!!!! Unfortunately, ala akong nakita kundi pwet lang... pero in fairness to the boys, makikinis sila lahat...

dec. 17-18, friday and saturday
um, i kinda forgot what i did these days... sowee

dec. 19, sunday
mom and i scoured sm for a bloody formal outfit for my friend sherry's debut... we settled for a blouse and skirt from forme... kala namin kailangan blue so ayun, mega hanap kami ng blue na outfit... thank god di naman

dec. 20, monday
tense na ako kasi debut na tomorrow... makikita ko ang mga ex ko... ex-friends that is

dec. 21, tuesday
big day... nagpaaus sa fave na makeup artist/ hairstylist ni ma... sinuot ang 2,000 worth outfit... and pmunta sa boring na debut... i felt a little out of place dun kasi puro barkada ng kabila ang nag-ayos sa debut ni sherry... feeling ko nananadya sila... but what the fuck? i shouldn't care... they're not my friends no more... pero i greeted my ex-bessie kasi i think she deserves it... sya lang... ung iba napilitan lang ako... i dont know why nagagwa ng mga friends ko maging civil sa kanilang laht when in fact they dont deserve it.... no xmas spirit for me...

dec. 22, wednesday
partay! my friends and i headed to cowboy grill para sa isang night or morning of partying... i had a blast... minumog lang namin ung 4 pitchers of san mig... and naubos naming 5 ang kalahating kaha ng marlboro... hehe... nakasayaw rin ako the way i wouldve wanted... medyo tipsy na nga me nun eh kaya nagawa kong makipagsayaw sa isang guy (gasp) and all... i was on the point of no return nung hinila me ng mga friends ko kasi ayoko ngang mapasama... funny tlaga yung incident na un... sana pala nakipagsayaw na ako sa cute guy na nakita ko dun if i knew THOSE would happen... sana maulet to... went home at 6 am and woke up at 11:30 am.. heehee (i'd appreciate if u dont tell dis to my mom, she'd be livid)

that's all, folks... ala namang nangyari nagyon eh... nothing major... til next time! tata!

New layout! However, borrowed na naman ito. Mga lima hanggang anim na layouts pa bago original layout na gawa ko. Patience lang po. Baka every two weeks may bagong layout ang blog ko.
Just came back from the province. Spent two days there.
Well, marami-rami naman kaming napamaskuhan kahit na hindi na namin pinuntahan yung mga kamag-anak namin dun.
Tapos nun, Cable galore ako all day. My sister and I, having nothing to do, decided to watch TV all day because embarassingly, mei cable sila. Kami kasi ala.
We were able to watch Finding Nemo twice. Sa HBO, we watched What A Girl Wants, and glimpses of The Matrix Reloaded (I like the first one the most). Sa AXN, Fear Factor marathon and some animes like Gensomadden Saiyuki (sorry kung wrong spelling). Sa WOWOW, Crouching Tiger kahit na hindi ko maintindihan yung sinasabi kasi alang subtitles; Maid in Manhattan, and Trapped (Charlize Theron, Stuart Townsend). Kanina sa Star Movies, Unfaithful kaso ayoko namang panoorin kasi andun yung sis ko. Napanood ko naman na kaya oks lang.
As usual, medyo ninerbiyos na naman me pauwi. I'm the kind of paranoid kasi na iniisip na lahat ng provincial buses, MRT and LRT have bomb threats and/or bombs. Well, that's just me.
I've put up the templates section at my site, though I'll plan to link it here by mid-January or February siguro. Ala lang.
That's all, til next time, tata!

nothing much, just want to post...
last nyt mom and i watched spiderman 2...
yeah i told you i watched it already kaso baka kasi magtaka mom ko bakit napanood ko na so i rode along...
during my second viewing of the spidey sequel did i realize that the first film was better than this one. meydo boring yung some parts and yeah, i agree with kirsten dunst when she said that the sequel could pass for a soap opera...
i just really liked this one line na sinabi ni tobey: "punch me, i'll bleed". cute, fluffy but really nice... in my opinion at least
i got some inspiration to do at least three more layouts pero hindi muna ngayon... i sitll have to read my takehome exam eh... letse kasi...
joined blogtraffic explosion and some tabulas communities....
planning to watch the uninvited later... pero feeling ko hindi ako makakatulog pagkatapos nun...
later... tata!

Galit ako sa’yo
Kasi hindi na kita
kilala
Ang layo na
Ng ugali mo
Sa dati kong
Pagkakakilanlan
Sa iyo
Bakit ka nagbago?
Sabi mo
Hindi ka mag-iiba
Ngunit tila
Tulad ka na
Nilang lahat
Na sinungaling
At mapagkunwa
Sana hindi na lang
Nangako
Ako tuloy ay
Umasa
Ayoko ng
Alalahanin
Ang dating
Pinagsamahan
Dahil nakalimot
Ka na
Hindi na kita
Kilala
Nasaan na ang
Kaibigan ko?
Anong ginawa
Mo sa kanya?
Ibalik
Mo na siya
Sa akin
Nangungulila
Na ako sa kanya
Sino ka ba?
Hindi kita
Kilala
At ayaw nang
Kilalanin pa

I’ve finally watched Underworld (Kate Beckinsale, Scott Speedman) last night. I know I said I’d be watching The Uninvited (where Carlo of Lovers in Paris stars) but I chickened out and watched Underworld instead.
I’m not spoiling the story here because you can check out five different outlines at imdb.com. I was attracted at the line the story ran in because basically it’s about the war between vamps and werewolves, the two creatures I luff, and there’s black outfits, British accents, cold characters, pale necks and nice blood (I happen to like it on some occasions). I was raring to watch this for so long but let’s just say I got the Brother Bear syndrome (read that entry so you’d understand)—too much expectation is inversely proportional to the actual feel of the movie. It had a dependable plot and in fact, various prequels, sequels and alternate endings could be drawn out from it. Just from the plot, Underworld could develop a considerable fanbase. There were loopholes in the story though. I felt that the film started too “middleway”—you have to figure out most of the story. I found Michael Corvin’s character a necessary waste in the plot. If you’re not going to listen well to the Lycran’s (or Lycan?) doctor, you won’t understand why Michael’s blood was important.
Kate Beckinsale proves to be a commendable vampire and “underworld” vixen. She’s dark, mysterious and she doesn’t even try. Scott Speedman in the meantime, is annoyingly disturbing. He’s bland, ineffective and well, bland. He is a miscast. I would have loved it if they placed Stuart Townsend there. The subcharacters like the one who plays Craven, Viktor and Lucian, eventhough unpopular, are very good. They do justice to their characters. I actually imagined the one who plays Lucian to effectively play Sirius Black too. He’s just too young for the character requirements and he’s not British so that disqualifies him. Anyhow, only Speedman proves incompetent in the movie.
Too much gore, so little special effects. Only when the werewolves transform do I realize it’s used computer animations. But it’s ok; too much CGI can congest the film. Besides it’s not an adventure movie like Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow, so little computer animations is understandable. The pacing of the story is okay. The overall feel of Underworld is something akin to Resident Evil—dark, gory, sullen. I just felt a little queasy on the bloody parts because they were too bloody. I understand though because it’s a creatures film.
Overall, I give it 3 out of 5 stars. Watch it and get nauseous. Your sadistic boyfriend/ friend will love this movie. He’ll get a little bored though. And if you’re a diehard vampire/werewolf fan, lower your expectations a little, Underworld doesn’t really equal a superb creatures movie.

on a sidenote: I hate today. Something traumatic happened to me last year. I HATE 29!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway, the icon i have is ryan gosling. he's the guy who plays young hercules before. he also stars in murder by numbers and the notebook. ala lang. XD
til nxt time, tata!

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I watched Crying Ladies (Sharon Cuneta, Eric Quizon) last night with my mom. She was so interested at how Sharon was able to win an international award for the film that’s why she rented it.
I assume you’ve heard the plot of the story and within the plot revolves the three crying ladies’s lives. However, it doesn’t really go that way. Maybe the original script had this plot originally but the writer decided to chop them off and focus on Sharon’s character, Stella Mate.
Stella is a professional hustler—from pretending to ride a wrong jeep so she can get off free, to pretending to be a rallying worker so she can get “donations” for the rally’s cause. Sharon acts quite naturally in CL and she internalizes her role well. Hindi siya OA. It’s as if she had been Stella Mate for real. Or baka naman kasi bagay yung role sa kanya kaya madali niyang nadala. Either way, magaling siya.
Eric Quizon plays Wilson Chua, the son of deceased chickboy/bad boy Tony Chua. Wilson hires Stella to be a crier at his father’s wake. Because of need for money, Stella obliges and tags along Hilda and Angel. Wilson’s character gets discussed at the end of the film and we learn how he hated his father even though his father loved him so much. Ok lang acting niya. Nothing extraordinary.
Hilda Koronel plays a frustrated actress under the screenname of Rhoda Rivera. She first had her big break at Darna and the Giants, a film starring Vilma Santos and Edgar Mortiz. Kaso nga kasi hindi sumikat, she settled on acting as a white lady at a horror house in Star City. Lahat ng frustrations niya ay vine-vent niya sa anak niyang maganda naman kaso hindi lang talaga palarin na makuha ang VTR sa commercials. I like her acting here and Hilda proves na kahit anumang role ibigay sa kanya, kaya niya.
Angel Aquino plays the religious lass who has a weakness for married men (and medyo tanga-tanga). Her character is not really vital to the movie pero she acted well na rin. Kaso, nothing extraordinary.
I liked the presence of Tony’s mistress, Becky. Kahit na ala siyang emotional scenes, maganda yung presence niya.
There are instances in the film na mabo-bore ka tulad nung complete ritual ng mga Chinese pag nililibing ang patay nila. The originality of the storyline is very commendable pero Pinoy na Pinoy pa rin ang plot. There are dramatic scenes and maybe you’d cry if you internalize them. Marami ring comedic scenes and hindi siya funny dahil slapstick humor kundi dahil pure humor siya. Maganda ang shots ng mga eksena and malinis ang pagkakagawa. Medyo mahina lang ang editing.
As a whole, I give it 3.5 out of 5 stars. Watch it and get entertained.
Pero don't buy it. It's not that good as in Pinoy classic good.
That's all til next time, tata!