Mariane's Narratives

galing ng friendster bulletin board.
(btw, i watched the phone last night and i wasn't that scared. i've actually watched half of it with my former friends. pinanood namin yun (pirated vcd) after watching the grudge so you know, medyo drained na yung energy namin para matakot kaya wala na lang dating yung the phone. sa channel 7, the grudge naman pinapalabas and i just couldn't bring myself to watch it. also, pinanood ko yung brother bear last night. i was a bit disappointed because i expected to cry at the end or at least some parts of the movie, or get touched or moved with some scenes kaso ala lang. pero watch it still, maganda-ganda na rin. earlier yesterday, i watched phone booth and it was ok. i dunno know why pero i found colin farrell attractive in that movie. medyo lame yung ibang parts pero mapagtitiisan naman. yun lang, end of parentheses)

How many times have you fallen inlove?
once lang (romantically)
Do they love you back?
no
When you fall out of love, do you easily give up and get out of the relationship?
di pa nangyayri yun so pag nangayri, probably no. i'd ask my partner's help first then we'd try to work things out and we'll see
Sa lahat ng minahal mo, who made you laugh most?
my mom
Cry most?
unspeakable
The one you can never 4get..
unspeakable agen
May minahal ka na bang hindi mo nagng bf/gf?
crushes lang eh
Have you evr cried for a girl/boy?
heller? oo naman
Have you fallen inlove with a chatmate?
no
Was the feeling mutual?
no nga eh
Thought u'd never love again because you were hurt by someone you really love?
ngayon oo
Do you fall inlove and get infatuated easily?
no
Ryt now, sinong minahal mo ang nasa isip mo?
ako lol
What do you usually fight about?
5 days lang kame so alang away
Craziest thing ever done for a gf/bf...
magtext ng napakagagang quote ng 5:00 am
The craziest thing your gf/bf done for you?
ala di nga ako minahal di ba?
Most romantic thing you've done to your bf/gf
text cguro saka pagsabi i love you
Most romantic thing your gf/bf done to you?
la
In a relationship, do you believe that sex adds up to the love betweeN partners?
of course XD
Favorite monthsary.
traumatic ang lovelyf ko so sorry
have you ever loved unconditionally?
siguro
Message mo sa mahal mo/dating mahal mo...
tangina mo... hehe

( went to holy cross memorial park in novaliches to visit my grandfather's grave. that's all that happened so far. )
galing uli ng friendster:

1. kalbo ka ba?
no
2. maarte ka ba?
no
3. kikay ka ba?
nooo
4. tamad ka ba?
SUPER
5. nagaaral ka ba?
yeh
6. nagka cram ka ba?
uhuh
7. madaldal ka ba sa telepono?
depende
8. nanggagaya?
madalas
9. tumatanggi?
oo
10. nagpapauto?
minsan
11. mabagal maglakad?
no, mei varicose veins na nga ako sa sobrang bilis e
12. asal hayop ka ?
oo animal ako eh meow
13. mahina kumain?
hindi ah... pag nakita mo ko u'll never know the meaning of light snack
14. nambobola?
madalas
15. madali ka bang magalit?
slight
16. mabait ka ba?
OO NAMAN XD
17. nakikinig ka ba sa teacher?
sempre, freshie e kaya mabait muna
18. binabaliwala mo ba ang mga mahahalagang bagay?
minsan
19. naghuhugas ka ba ng kamay bago kumain?
minsan nakaklimutan ko
20. eh pagkatapos kumain?
oo
21. nagtetext ka ba?
now na, no. pero oo
22. nangiistorbo ka ba?
ako nga iniistorbo e
23. hinahayaang mo bang magutom ang sarili mo?
nyooo
24. nagsisimba ka ba?
i hav a valid reason why i don't
25. nagpapanggap ka bang ayos?
occasionally
26. nangiiwan ka ba?
HINDI AH! AKO NGA INIWANAN EH!
27. nagpapabasa ka ba sa ulan?
sipunin ako e
28. bad mood ka ba (moody?)?
oo pero ako lang nakakaalam nun
29. nagiindian ka ba?
no
30. nagpapahintay ka ba ng matagal?
punctual po ako
31. kapag may fries ang kaibigan mo, nagpapalam ka ba kung kukuha ka?
oo
32. namimiss mo din ba ang mga kaibigan mo?
oo naman
33. kung may pinapahanap sayo, hinahanap mo ba?
uh yeah?
34. naninisi ka ba ng ibang tao?
not directly
35. nagsasayang ka ba ng credits?
no
36. naninigarilyo ka ba?

37. stalker ka ba?
wish ko lang
38. makulit ka ba?
oo,parang ikaw
39. mahilig ka bang mag tanong?
ikaw yun pare
40. nakakabaliw ka ba?
hell yah!
41. nagpupuyat ka ba?
doing that currently
42. mapili ka ba sa pagkain?
mejo
43. nananakit ka ba ng tao?
oo warfreak ako e
44. nanloloko ka ba?
NOOO
45. kinakausap mo ba ang mga magulang ng friends mo?
pag kinakausap nila ako
46. sumusulat ka ba kapag may lecture?
oo
47. sinisigawan mo ba ang mga ibang tao?
hindi
48. namamansin ka ba?
minsan minsan
49. ma drama ka ba?
minsan
50. mahilig ka ba sa OPM ?
rock bands lang

(had my registration today. hell grabe! we (mom and i) were going back and forth from one building to another... i promise next time i crs, i'll make sure maganda ang tactics ko for enlistment para ala na akong i-mamanual enrol. i didn't get pe kasi ang haba ng pila, instead i took an mst, which is nat sci 1. medyo kinakabahan ako sa nat sci 1 kasi andaming reklamo dun pero hindi naman siguro siya kasinglala ng math 17... tapos biglang voltes five pala ang makuha kong prof oh... shit... anyway, bahala na basta makapgshift ako, that's enuf... i also signed up for summer classes... i enrolled for comm 3 and kas 1 plus 2 pe's... para madali akong makagraduate...)

took all these tests from emode.com. tickle.com also has loads of tests which are sensibly done. quizilla.com however is a just-for-fun quiz site pero merong mga images para sa results...

How Confident are You?

mariane, your confidence level is high. As a result, you may tend view yourself as a wonderful, lucky, or energized person. However you probably also have your days when you don't feel so hot. After all, you're only human. Because of your usual high level of self-acceptance and belief in yourself, you're generally open and accepting of others. People who come in contact with you likely appreciate this generous nature and may seek out your company. Your artistic ability seems to be the trait that you most value in yourself of the five main traits that affect confidence. You also seem to appreciate this characteristic in others.

What's Your Emotional Age?

Behavior:There are countless reasons why people may act or feel a certain age at any given point in their lives. Feeling a certain age is not a static thing, nor is it something that always follows a pre-determined pattern. Some people act older when they are children then have a second childhood in their retirement years. Others act like children until they become parents and then seem to click into a different mode. It can be helpful and insightful to learn which stage you're at right now, and why.Nobody fits neatly into a given category. There are several components in your emotional age: behavior, emotion, and responsibility. In the area of behavior, you seem to fall very clearly into the "mature" category. There is no doubt that others can rely on you and that your behavior is probably consistent and dependable. This is great, but it probably also means that you don't allow yourself to have too much fun or act "outside the box." Most of your actions might be dictated by how they are going to affect other people. Basically, you might want to lighten up a little. Try to focus more on your own feelings. And, most of all -- have a little fun!Emotions:In the realm of emotions, you seem to fall into the "adult" category. This means that you are probably in control of your emotions. You can recognize your feelings and express them clearly. You are probably rational and composed, but you make sure that you do not neglect your own emotions. This healthy balance allows you to interact well with others, while staying true to yourself.Responsibility:When it comes to the level of responsibility you assume, for yourself or others, you fall into the "adult" category. This means that you are probably someone who can be relied on to come through in any situation. People around you likely consider you dependable and strong. Don't let your dominant care-taking side force you to neglect your own needs. Keep a healthy balance and continue to take care of yourself too.

What Zodiac Sign Should You Be?

A Scorpio!It's sooo you!The planets are very complex. Maybe your astrologer will disagree, and maybe a few tendencies will vary, but overall you're a SCORPIO. You're just like a water sign, which comes out in the way you're so in tune with your emotions and your intuitions. Your symbol is a scorpion, which represents your secretive nature and your ability to emit a powerful poison when vengeful. A bundle of contradictions, you have the ability to demonstrate both the best and worst qualities that characterize human nature. Generally, you are intense and passionate, yet stubborn and competitive. You use your intuition fearlessly, and you have a tendency to explore the nature of existence through the study of philosophy and religion. Although it is difficult for you to trust others, whenever you finally do, the result is deep and powerful. On the downside, however, you must work hard to suppress your jealousy. Your dedication, drive, and persistence will guarantee you success, and you are known and respected for your imagination and idealism.

Are You a Workaholic?

Slow down, take a deep breath, and RELAX. You deserve it! Do you find yourself hesitating to make plans "just in case" you have to work late? Has lunch become an unnecessary time-out in your day? It appears so. Although your priorities are not completely out of whack, it seems as if your life lacks some balance. It's certainly commendable that your job is so important to you. And your endurance and ambition are certainly admirable. But, you've got to make sure that you don't lose sight of your own needs because you're so focused on those of your company. It's well known that productivity is higher when you maintain balance in your life. If you are overworked, not only will your social and personal life suffer, but the quality of your work will suffer too. Remember, a successful career alone does not amount to a fulfilling life. Go ahead, take some time for you. You deserve it!

Are You Millionaire Material?

You work hard for your money, but it just never seems to make you any richer, right? That's because you're just regular folk, baby. And that's A-okay. Really. (It worked for the Conners on Roseanne, didn't it?) Maybe you're not the best financial manager ever to walk the earth, but chances are money's not really all that important to you. So what if your job has never made anyone rich? You don't care. If you'd wanted to be rich, you'd have had to make that your number one priority and forget about lots of other things ? like having fun and spending lots of time with family and friends. It's better to enjoy yourself while you can than spend your time drooling over a bank balance. Sure, you probably wish life wasn't such hard work and that one of those lottery tickets would finally pay off, but all in all we know you're doing okay. Congrats!

just watched what a girl wants (amanda byrnes, colin firth) and i must say it's pretty good. although not the typical walt-disney good kind of film. it's not close to princess diaries nor is it a tad near to parent trap. amanda byrnes wasn't outstanding and colin firth was as stoic as ever. it doesn't pass for a drama/ comedy because it's just got a light ambiance around it. i do notice walt disney loves teenage, family, love and self-discovery issues. 2.5 out of 5 stars. rent it don't buy it. don't give it either as a gift. baka mai-recycle lang yung na gift uli.
currently juggling doing four stories. one is being draco, chapter 16. the other is at this juncture, another draco/hermione fic which was originally a one-shot gone awry (it's bloody long and it isn't even half of the plot). another is as still as a photograph (i wrote it in a notebook and still writing it). plot is about a photographer who has a supermodel girlfriend and then one day falls for an ordinary girl; loads of twists and stuff. another is fork in our roads (typewritten and Taglish); it's about Ima, Evan and Jake, the former being engaged but the latter is sick however. Naisip nila Ima na magbakasyon for Evan to spend the last of his days with his loved ones. He brought along JAke, a longtime bestfriend na matagal na niyang di nakikita. Ang twist, si Jake ay ex ni Ima na hindi na sana gusto pa makita nung nahuli. Ayun lang, no deadlines naman kaya ok lang. Just thought I'd share with you.
Napulot na naman sa Friendster:
*Mad Section*
1.what do you do when you're mad?
nuthin
2. what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
cursed God
3. ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
yeah
4. ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?
wish ko lang
5. do you curse when you're mad?
minsan

*Crying Section*
1. when was the last time you really cried your heart out?
two months ago yata
2. ever cried yourself to sleep?
yea
3. ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
yea
4. do you cry when you get an injury?
no
5. do certain songs make you cry?
pag nag-dradrama ako

*Pain Section*.
1. what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?
hurt her emotionally
2. how depressed can you get?
you have ne idea

*Happy Section*
1. are you normally a happy person?
yea
2. what can make you happy?
daniel radcliffe, tom felton, harry potter, food, anything as long as i'm happy
3. do you wish you were happier?
sumtyms
4. what about being with your friends, does that make u happy?
yea

*Love Section*
1. have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd do everything for them?
yea
2. did you ever love a person, and tell them that you love them?
yea
3.have loved someone so much, it made you cry?
yea
4.has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?
no

*Hate Section*
1. who do you actually hate?
******
2. ever made a hate list?
malapit na, ala-beatrice sa kill bill
3. have you ever been on a hate list?
i think so
4. have you hated any one that breaks your heart?
part of ******

A young man was getting ready to graduate from college.
For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted.
As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car.
Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautifully wrapped gift box. Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible.
Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money, you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book.
Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him.
He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He
needed to come home immediately and take care of things.
When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible, and began to turn the pages.As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words ... PAID IN FULL.
How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?

I watched The Lion King 3: Hakuna Matata last night with mom and I could not stop laughing. The story felt a little hurried, empty and leaning towards Timon but nonetheless, it still is funny. Watch it and laugh. That's all, until then, visit this site: http://www.cse.unsw.edu.au/~geoffo/humour/flattery.html to get flattered much.

From the Friendster bullboard agen XD:
1. kung ikaw ay isang bolpen, anong tatak mo?
panda
2. kung ikaw ay isang cellphone, anong model ka?
3310
3. kung ikaw ay isang sapatos, ano ka?
skechers
4. kung ikaw ay isang payong, anong kulay ka?
red
5. kung ikaw ay isang dessert, ano ka?
mcflurry
6. kung isa kang kulay, ano ka?
black
7. kung ikaw ay breakfast, ano ka?
ham and egg
8. kung isa kang subject sa school, ano ka?
english
9. kung isa kang pagkain na itinitinda sa school mo, ano ka?
cheese corn
10. kung isa kang guard, saang building mo gusto mag duty?
sa lib para malamig
11. kung isa kang damit, ano ka?
bra
12. kung isa kang printer, mabagal ka ba o mabilis magprint?
syempre mabilis
13. kung isa kang cellphone, iskandaloso/a ka ba?
nope
14. kung isa kang telenovela, ano ka?
uh puwede bang reality show na lang?
15. kung isa kang unan, idescribe mo sarili mo..
soft
16. kung isa kang stuffed toy, ano ka?
bear cguro
17. kung isa kang gamit sa bahay, ano ka?
computer
18. kung isa kang beach resort, maganda ka ba?
xempre
19. kung isa kang kanta, ano ka?
rock song
20. kung isa kang tv program, ano ka?
reality show

Yesterday, I thought I almost lost my Form 5 because when I asked my mom where it was and she said it was in her wallet and it wasn't, I panicked. My father started retelling how the returning incident happened (he borrowed it from mom) and my mom just helped in the search and rescue operation. Luckily, my sis knew where it was because my mom gave it to her when my father returned it to my mom. Good thing my sis has a good memory. Case solved!
Also yesterday, I watched Nick of Time (Johnny Depp, Christopher Walken), a 1995 film about an accountant (Depp) who gets recruited to assasinate a governor before deadline or else have his daughter killed. It's pretty ok although Depp was a bit stoic. Walken was excellent, the daughter was cute and the shoeshiner was pretty good. The story isn't that transfixing but if you're interested as to what will happen in the end, it's worth the watch. I appreciate the real time video recording because it makes you feel the tension Depp was feeling. It's a good watch however not that wonderful. Rent it. Don't buy it.
I am way in over my head over CSS Layouts. Currently, I am not that knowledgeable about CSS Layout techniques but I am willing to learn. I have saved tutorials and useful tips from Glish.com/css, bluerobot.com, thenoodleincident.com and cssvault.com for the purpose of applying these learnings in my own blog. Hopefully, I will be successful and the next blog layouts will be self-made. I think that the next layout will not be premade anymore but inspired from a certain template, which still makes me unoriginal. Well, it's not that easy to learn CSS, mind you. Anyway, visit those sites I have mentioned and be astounded with the power of CSS!
That's all, til next time, tata!

here i was
trying to live
yet circumstances prove
my attempts vain
will it be okay then
to give in to the situation
or feign the struggle
to survive?
they say
it is a battle
the fittest shall live
the weak will perish
if i give up
will it be a sin?
or a sweet surrendering
to my destiny?
here i am
trying to survive
yet the attempts
have never made me live
now i look down
i see the lonely souls
the fittest is yet to come
but the weak will be there
trying to survive
but unhappy to be alive

Took this from a tabulas friend of mine. I kinda like the name ^_^.

My Japanese name is Akane Ajibana.
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First day of classes was ok. My first class was Chem 1 and I met two new "friends", namely Trisha and Maelyn. Took thier e-mail addies for Friendster lol. The prof was really nice, her name is Dr. Cynthia Gregorio. She also works at the Office of the Vice Chancellor (Academic Affairs) in the Extension Affairs, I think. She is one of those who handles the exchange student program to Singapore, Korea and Japan. I want to try out for that maybe next year, just to try you know and challenge myself. We had an assignment already but since it was first day, I still had much enthusiasm to do the assignments. She dismissed us early enough and then I went to my next class (Soc Sci 2) which was four floors away from my first class.
I had a panting hell of a time but it was worth it because I liked the prof of the subject, Dr. Matthew M. Santamaria. He was gay and proud of it, and very witty. Met another two new pals, named Tadz and Sarah. We had some groupings and my group chose me as thier team leader. Whatever, I'm not that bothered. We were given an assignment to read the first 115 pages of Great Political Thinkers by William and Alan Ebenstein (our textbook).
After that, I went straight to my last class which was a floor away (Socio 10) and got disappointed 30 minutes later to realize my prof was absent. I saw two former classmates from my Bowling class and we chatted. I also saw a former classmate from my Soc Sci 1 class but she had company so we weren't seated together. A snotty upperclassmen girl seated beside me and I snubbed her nicely (?) because she was a bit hostile. One of the two former classmates of mine is also my classmate in Nat Sci 1 so I was happy.
At 3:00, I went to PH 1203 A to avail a copy of the Readings for Chemistry worth Php 75. After that, I checked out the price of the Sco Sci 2 book at the FC, 3rd floor and found out it was worth Php 510! That price is quite surprising considering the quality of the book. I suppose it's a new book that's why it's expensive. I saw my Eng 1 essays at my prof's pigeonhole and took it home just for the sake of taking it home. I saw my Eng 11 prof at her office before that and wanted to talk to her and get my papers but she was talking to someone else. Next time would be a better time, I guess.
I decided to go home after all these, forgetting to have my ID taped with a new sticker and inquiring for details on shifting to Journalism. Oh well, there's a lot of days to do that.
That's all, I'm dreading Thursday because my first class is at 7:00 am so goodbye to staying up late at night. Til next time, tata!

CURIOUS
i want to see
what the world could be
without me
it wouldn't matter
i am only one person
to the world
another casualty
does not mean a loss
my few friends and family
will mourn
but they will move on
my soul will not
forever will it dwell
on the state it has died
whether paranoia,
dementia or depression
it will never matter
for tis land
i will be trekking
is foreign to me
for i may walk
on a barren land
walk without purpose
recall the memories
of my previous life
in tis land
thrives the souls
who once wondered
what the world would be like
with the loss of his life
in tis land
shall be my bed
and my refuge
but never my home
for i have left it
to have this land known

Second day of classes, woke up at 5:00 am to go to school. 7 kasi first class ko eh. Pero actually, I wasn't able to sleep the night before kasi I don't know why... Mga 3 am na ako nakatulog. I arrived at UP at around 6:15 (left home 5:45). Hindi pa bukas ang AS nun so punta ako ng FC just in case bukas na ang Dept of Pol Sci for me to be able to buy my Soc Sci 2 buk. 8 pa raw magbubukas sabi nung guard so I returned to AS just in time for the opening of the gates (o di ba drama?). Pumanhik na ako sa class ko and I wasn't surprised na ako ung nauna dun. Later on, may mga pumasok na rin na classmates ko tapos to my surprise, my former classmate, Tracy Simon came in. We hugged twice then chatted away. A little later, dumating na yung prof and he was pretty ok.
We were dismissed early enuf so ayun, sinamahan ako ni Tracy na bumili ng buk ko and we alos had our IDs stickered (?). Tapos tumambay kami sa AS kasi dun next class niya, eh vacant ko hanggang 11:30. Na-meet ko yung isa niyang former classmate, a pretty girl named Monica (ata ehehe) tapos yun, mga 5 minutes before 10 lumipad na kaming lahat kasi class na ni Tracy.
I went to SC and ate at Rodics, then had my pic taken for subject purposes. Tapos pumunta ako sa CMC para mag-inquire about shifting. Then I went back to AS para sa 2nd class ko. Sa 4th floor pala siya, when I thought first floor, so dusa ang lyf ko kasi next class ko was Nat Sci 1 in CS Auditorium. Mabait yung prof (woman) and she dismissed us early.
NAt Sci 1 had to be walked to so ayun, mega lakad ako sa gitna ng ulan. I arrived there and saw some familiar faces, 2 former bowling classmates, a former Soc Sci 1 classmate and a former Bio 1 classmate. Classmate ko si Masol (yung sinabi ko last time na classmate ko rin sa Socio 10) and we sat together. Kaloka pala itong batang ito!
Anyway, after a boooooooooooring orientation, umuwi na ako.
Tomorrow, orientation sa Socio 10 (hopefully siputin na kami ng prof namin) and first lesson in Chem1. Alang klase sa Soc Sci 2 so taht's well and good. Also, kukunin ko rin yung mga hinihiram kong stuff sa former classmates ko tomorrow.
That's all, tata!

today was a disappointing day. i woke up at 7:30 to go to UP at 9:00 because I was supposedly going to attend some forum about Gen Carlos Garcia's situation. It was extra credit for my Fil 40 class and my classmate, Angela and I, decided to go. However, at around 9:15, the forum hasnt still begun (eh may exam si Angela) so we decided we wouldn't be going.
I went to the Main Lib to study for Chem and Soc Sci 2 for an hour then headed to my next class. Then, to my dismay, Chem 1 class today was cancelled because of some meeting. We were to have a quiz on Tuesday and I guess, the 2nd lecture.
And so I headed off to the fourth floor of AS for my next class, Soc Sci 2. I took down notes for it and waited until it was time. However, to my dismay again, the class was cancelled. I finished taking down notes and went off to my next class.
Luckily, there were classes and we had a brief introductory discussion on Filipino citizenship (after the last few groups' presentation). We had to obtain a copy of Randy David's book, Nation, Self and Citizenship: An Invitation to Sociology for the course. After which, I tried to know how much the book was but there was stuff happening in the Dept. of Sociology so I opted to go home instead. I tried to look for it in National at SM North but unfortunately, there wasn't one. I went home, finally.
I'll probably be posting entries on a weekly basis now because I feel guilty of our "astounding" electric bills.
Til next time, tata!

emailed to me once by my friend...don't agree on sum parts... or rather, i do not want to remember that i agreed... too cynical about love na kasi eh...

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return. How to define love: fall but do not stumble beconstant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart.Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love 'coz every time we do, we get hurt, then i figured that's why it's called falling in love.

guess what people?! i already know how to make tabulas templates and layouts! i'm so happy... i was really into making my very own tab templates that i think i made 18 future layouts! (i notice that every sentence i have previosuly made ended in exclamation points, hehe)
i plan to put a sort of get the code link on every layout (except on those i borrowed) so you guys, if you feel like using the layouts, can sue them!
happy me, really, really happy!
that's all, til next time, tata!