Mariane's Narratives

I bought Meteora by Linkin Park nung Monday, as I had mentioned in my latest entry. My review? Well, maraming mga tracks na magkakatimber and katunog nung mga tracks nila nung last album.
Numb is obvioulsy Pushing Me Away na iniba lang. Hit the Floor reminds me of Papercut. Faint and Nobody's Listening lang ata yung mga tracks na medyo iba. Breaking the Habit is sickening kapag paulit-ulit na pinakinggan (the habit part in the chorus seems like a wail) but it's really beautiful and sentimental pag sa unang beses mo napakinggan. The other tracks are sort of LInkin Park's way of finding themselves and establishing an identity aside from their screams and rapping. However, while wanting to do this goal, they sometimes run back to the formula they had developed in Hybrid Theory, thus creating tracks that sound the same or run along the same lines.
Favorite ko yung Don't Stay, Faint and Nobody's Listening kaya siguro I tend to praise these tracks pero really, try to find time para i-anlyze yun mga yun in case you plan on buying Meteora.
If die-hard fan ka ng LP, siguro you'd say mali ang review ko and Meteora is a work of a genius. Well, I am entitled to my own opinion so shut up.
I liked the notes before the lyrics on the inlay of details because it personalizes Meteora as a true work of Linkin Park. It also makes you want to listen to the tracks more purposefully. Medyo bitin nga lang yung album pag natapos mo na both sides pero, as a whole, ok lang.
Anyway, buy the album if you feel like buying it pero I suggest don't listen to it all the time. Ala lang, baka kasi magsawa ka agad. Of five stars, I give it 2 and a half.
On a side note, katatapos lang ng 5th MAth exam ko and I am bloody nervous if I had answered the exam correctly. Bahala na si Lord. If I pass then I pass, if I don't then I don't.

Browsing through sites for my sis' homework, I encountered an interesting and informative one called Nationmaster.com. It literally rides on with its name and there you can find statistics, information, government etc. about basically every country in the world. Although the Vice-President there was still Teofista Guingona, impressive yung details nila.
Here's what I got that sorta interested me:
Of 100 countries, Rp ranks
75th-probability of not reaching 40 8.9%
35th-1,480,000 (as of 2000) personal computers
35th-33 isps (internet service providers)
18th-84 films produced
10th-4592 livejournal users
71th-69% urbanization by 2015
77th-3.29 children/woman ( as of 2003)
11th-95.9 M population by 2015
71st-1.92% population growth rate (as of 2003)
12th-85% happy
36th-6.5 of a scale of 1-10, 10 being the highest, satisfied
6th-40% very happy
40th-7% not very happy
59th-7.42 per square km (MRYA 1996-1999) most vehicles
43rd-42.04 billion kWh (2001) energy consumption
40th-3.7 M tvs
12th 11.35m(2001) cellphones
37th-17.77/100 ppol have cell
32nd-11.5 m radios (2003)
Chinese population: 2,200,000 [5th of 146]
Business efficiency: 44 [3rd of 40]
Prisoners: 70,383 [17th of 164]
Banana production: 3,560,800 [5th of 48]
Female professionals: 66% [5th of 70]
Last for...
Economy - Fishing subsidies (per $ GDP)
Geography - Maritime claims (territorial sea)
Industry - Heavy truck production (per capita)
Language - Spanish speakers
Language - Spanish speakers (per capita)
Religion - Jews (per capita)
1st for...
Agriculture - Exports to USA - Coconuts
Agriculture - Exports to USA - Coconuts (per capita)
Education - Hours of instruction for pupils aged 12
Education - Hours of instruction for pupils aged 13
Education - Primary teacher age (proportion aged 50-59)
Education - Primary teacher age (proportion aged 60+)
Energy - Electricity - production by source (other) 26.9% as of 2001
Labor - Work time (market-oriented)

that's all... interesting naman di ba?

shit.
my math 17 finals was fucking crazy. i was able to answer the first part of the exam, which were moderately hard. come to the last problems, i wasn't able to answer any of the questions. there are removal exams however, so i guess i'll just do better there. pag si man lang kasi ang gumagawa, medyo mas madali. pag departmental kasi, mental talaga.
anyway, yesterday, finals naman namin sa eng 1 and i dunno, i feel na mababa ako dun... 26 items na multiple choice on grammar and shit (i had a few erasures, and i dunno if i will regret having those erasures). may theme writing sa dulo and if the whole exam was 50 items, siguro for 24 points iyon or kung a 100 points, malamang 74 points siya. either way, i feel nga na mababa yun. shit!!!!! oh well, ganun talaga.
how did i feel na ganun nga kakalabasan nun eh ok naman ang english skills ko? well, she just returned our second essay (descriptive essay) and i only got 2! imagine! i expected to get at least a grade ranging from 1-1.75 and i got 2! ang yabang ko naman para mag-expect ng ganun ano? pero kasi, i was made to believe na maganda na ang skills ko sa english during my hs days... hay naku bahala na... basta kung 2 pa rin ang makukuha ko sa revised na paper ko dun, well ganun talaga...
kahapon rin ay deadline for the submission of the final paper (7-10 pages long) for eng 11. painstaking ang paggawa ko nung paper na yun.. as in! i hope i get a gud enuf grade for it. nung wednesday exam namin sa subject na ito and dun sa objective part, out of 75 points, i got 71. medyo apprehensive ako sa essay part kasi medyo hindi ko pinag-isipan. bahala na, what can i do eh it's over.
on a lighter note, i got 3 for my pe class (duckpin bowling) and that's good enuf for me. at least nakapasa di ba? sa soc sci 1 class ko i got 1.25 and that's very good... i didn't expect na ganun siya kasi 5x ako nagabsent sa class niya... hehe..
aside from my math removal exams, last exam ko na ay bio 1 sa wednesday. that day malalaman ko rin ang result ng first exam namin.
hay... at least, tapos na hell week ko (muntik na akong mamatay at magpakamatay)... and besides, ive come to realize now that my grades don't measure my appreciation of a certain course subject nor my worth as a person (magpalusot daw ba) pero honestly, totoo naman di ba?
hanggang dito na lang... til next tym.
ps.
i would like to correct yung sinabi ko na nag-champion yung feu sa uaap. dlsu pala. sorry.

Deep inside me I feel so alone
Deep inside me, I needed someone
Deep inside me, deep inside me
I'm not insane, I act naturally
I'm no wacko but they treat me differently
They think I'm crazy, I feel like I don't belong
They say I'm absurd but I know they're wrong
In my aloneness I think of the good memories
In my loneliness I think of you
If you could only see, all this pain you've left me
If you could only see
Deep inside me
Only if you could feel
What I shouldn't have felt
You left me locking up myself
And now I'm so weird and untamed
I wished deep inside me
Everything would be the same

Just finished my Bio 1 2nd exam. It was kinda moderate (just like the first exam) and I dunno how I did. I had a lot of erasures and I misfollowed some directions. Dang it! Oh well, no use regretting. On a lighter note, I got 89% on my 1st exam. That's good enough. And while I was entering the room to take my exam, my Bio prof said that because I was active in reciting, he intends to give me a 1.25 in my classcard! Nice of him, no?
I went to Faculty Center 1056 to check if my Eng 1 narrative was there. Wasn't there and I suppose it will never be there since I remembered our prof saying she wasn't returning the narrative any more (I checked just to make sure I heard her right). Deadline for the last one (descriptive) is on Friday and I intend to pass it on that day (so I can watch another movie ^_^).
Well, I watched Ladder 49 today after a short debate with myself as to which movie I will watch. The other films were Feng Shui (they said it was scary so I chickened out), Resident Evil 2 (I think it's suspenseful and watching it alone would be quite stupid so nah, didn't choose that one), Open Water (boring--I mean the whole film's just that, loads of water and a stuck couple), Three ( it's an Asian horror film so I'm sure I'm gonna freak out ), Shark Tale (watched it already) and House of Flying Daggers (saw the trailer and I'm not impressed; besides Zhang Ziyi's overused already, haven't they got other options for better Chinese actresses?).
I didn't review Shark Tale no? Anyway, here it is: I won't give away the plot and instead, give you the overall review. As a whole, Shark Tale is kinda the black comedy animated movie. Black comedy because they all say sumthin, wassup, yo mah men, hey bro, etc... [ insert your rap word here ]. Honestly, I didn't understand most of the lines Will Smith were saying because he speaks way too fast. I did like the idea of how a cool, New York-like city underwater is. I didn't like the antics of the octopus which was sort of the sidekick of the big Shark (Robert DeNiro). They were PATHETIC. Even Crazy Joe, I think that's his name, is a pathetic character. Major flaw was the characterization of the characters. I mean, if one were to compare it to Finding Nemo, the characters there were well-defined. Some parts will make you laugh; some will make you think; and some you will screm 'pathetic!'. Anyway, if you want to watch it, go ahead. I give it 2.25 out of 5 stars.
On to Ladder 49. What I liked best in this film was the friendship among the firefighters. The whole movie is in a flashback and you'll know why once you watch it. Phoenix did a great job on this one and the friendship he had with Travolta is alos touching. Medyo slow yung pacing ng movie because it wants you to realize how noble a life Phoenix's character (Jack Morrison) was. I recommend you watch this instead to learn how courageous a firefighter (or a public servant like a firefighter) is. 3 out of 5 stars.
Hanggang dito na lang. Tata!

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Well, ginanahan me kaya eto pa ang isa. Update ko lang kayo sa kukuhanin kong subjects next sem (hopefully makasign-up ako sa lahat):
Socio 10 MTh 10:00a-11:30a
Pan Pil 19 MTh 11:30a-1:00p
PE 2 PLT TFB ((2)) TF 8:00a-9:00a (pilates)
Soc Sci 2 TF 2:30p-4:00p
Chem 1 TF 11:30a-1:00p
PE 2 PG MTh 8:00a-9:00a (philippines games)
Anthro 10 MTh 1:00p-2:30p
Physics 10 TF 10:00a-11:30a
Aun lang!

did this poem a while ago while i was "guarding" the store.

THERE ARE NO MIRRORS IN HELL
don't look at me like that
i hate it when you look like that
don't curse me, hate me
i'm not the one who did you wrong
i am merely a part of you
i am not your whole sanity
so don't blame me, don't blame me
i am here when you want me to
but most of the time you don't want me
why? am i a bad omen?
i am merely a part of you
i do not control your whole identity
why do you hate me?
you did this, you created me
i can not be changed
by other people because
i am merely a part of you
and only you can change me
but you do not seem to know that
you keep on blaming other people
other things in youe life
i believe all those other things
are not at all that bad
you only make them look bad
you only make them bad
just like the way you did to me
how i wish i could talk to you
make you realize these truths
so you can be saved
so you can learn to love
but will you ever see me?
i do not think so
there are no mirrors in hell
there are no mirrors in hell

hope you understood and liked this.

darn it. didn't get my pe's (pilates and phil games) , physics 10 and anthro 10.

I got these however:
Fil 40 MTh 11:30a-1:00p
Chem 1 TF 11:30a-1:00p
Socio 10 TF 2:30p-4:00p
Soc Sci 2 TF 1:00p-2:30p

And have to pre-enlist for these again: Pan Pil 17, Pilates (another shot), Philo 1 and Basic Tae Kwon Do.

Well I do hope I get those now. I BLOODY hope so.

Wish me luck.

Sum quizzes I took a few days ago. Interesting results.

Free personality analysis from ColorQuiz.com.
Your Existing Situation
Seeks to share a bond of understanding intimacy in an esthetic atmosphere of
peace and tenderness.
Your Stress Sources
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel
secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over
or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in
the future and this negative attitude leads her to make exaggerated demands
and to refuse to make reasonable compromises.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels listless, hemmed in, and anxious; considers that circumstances and
forcing her to restrain her desires. Wants to avoid open conflict with
others and to have peace and quiet.
Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties
and that she must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve
satisfaction from sexual activity.
Your Desired Objective
Demands that ideas and emotions shall merge and blend perfectly. Refuses to
make any concessions or to accept any compromises.
Your Actual Problem
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh
goals have led to anxiety, emptiness, and an unadmitted self-contempt. Her
refusal to admit this leads to her adopting a headstrong and defiant
attitude.

IDEALIST. AdvisorTeam October 11, 2004 (I forgot the site)
Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.
Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is.
The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.
Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness.
Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.
Idealists are rare, making up between 20 and 25 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

VISIONARY™ THINKING STYLE (forgot the site too, heehee)
Personal extracts from the ANSIR® 3 Sides of You® book
When they solve problems, they focus on what's not been said or done.
They have extremely strong egos.
"They tend to be ponderous thinkers and drop-of-a-hat dreamers, and don't mind passing time alone doing both. Able, and conscientious, they tend to inspire confidence in others. Enough so, to generally be thought likely to succeed. Historically, as evolutionarily, Visionarys are the most wealthy, powerful, and happy entrepreneurs on the planet. They've usually seen and smelled more of life's kaka, before passing the "Visionary Lesson," than most experience in a lifetime or more. Where most would buckle in ruin or run from the pressure, Visionary confronts head-on. They're not only critical linear-thinkers who exceed solution and surpass expectation; they're intuitives. While Idealist can travel logic's path at lightning speed and find solution from step 1 through 10, in the same time, Visionary travels from step 1 through 40 and not only finds solution but returns with a mental blueprint, marketing strategy, and a coloured snapshot of the completed project. These individuals have potential to blaze and raze intellectually. What differentiates them from most is how they cope under pressure." ...
Professional insight from WorkforceDNA™
When the dominant strength is Visionary, then dominant abilities are
intuition, creative problem-solving and the inspiring of others.
When an individual's greatest gifts are in seeing the bigger picture, to benefit from their unique Style of best, know "how to treat them." (Provided in a WorkforceDNA™ Report or Account).

i passed my eng 1 descriptive essay today thinking that today was the deadline. unfortunately, when i reread my prof's note on the door of her office, i saw the it was only until yesterday that we could pass our essays.
shit!!!! according to her house rules, deadlines are absolute and the mark she will give for a late paper is 5.0.
5?! fuck, fuck fuck! now, i'm going to get a probable grade of 3 on my eng 1 class card! oh shit... i do hope she considers my essay.
darn it... i originally planned to pass it on wednesday but my lazy, lazy hormones told me i still have friday to pass it. darn it... darn it...
darn it! all i can do now is pray to god to give me at least a 2.0 on that subject... i promise to do better next sem... i really, really swear on that...
on a happier note, i saw my clique today and we watched feng shui... not that scary... or maybe because i know the story already... kris is still annoying, as always...had fun being with them anyway so i guess my day's ok...
but i still can't take that fucking worry off my head... waaaaaaa

Went to the doctor yesterday. Sorry I wasn’t able to post. As if anyone reads my posts anyway. Anyway, I don’t post entries to be read, I post them because I want to.
As I was saying, I went to an eyes, ears, nose, and throat doctor because of my chronic cold. I’m the kind of person who sneezes at the slightest change in temperature, air humidity and air pressure. Pretty nasty huh? Well, the doctor traced this hypersensitivity of mine to an encounter with asthma during my elementary years. It was cured after proper medication and never came back (so far). I thought he’d point out something about my weight but it seemed to me that it seemed to him that there was nothing to worry about that being a factor of illness to me. He examined my nose and saw that the inside of the left nostril was curved and that the are around my tonsil had two swollen lumps. I told him about a lump on the right side my neck and he recommended me to have an X-ray for possible lung problems.
Well, that worried me a bit because maybe the results would say I have some fair share of nicotine clogging up my lungs. In case that is what the results would say, my mom would find out I have been smoking. I did ask permission from her but maybe she’d blame this acquired habit of mine for my illness. Luckily, she didn’t get my results due today. Judgment day’s delayed I guess.
Yesterday I also watched some rented VCD’s. They were The Recruit (Colin Farell, Al Pacino) and Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen (Lindsay Lohan). I thought the former was really good because it had a sensible plotline and I even had an inspiration for a story because of that film but alas, it wasn’t. The film was so boring. Didn’t entice me. nor fascinate me. Nothing…. The “nothing is what is seems” line was so redundant that it sets your mind to look at the whole story in a “nothing is what it seems” way. Big disappointment. If you’re planning to buy it, don’t. Waste your money on some magazine or book sale book instead.
The latter was as expected, teenybopper, chick flick, etc., etc., etc. As usual, Lindsay was pretty and her character got her way. I’d say Freaky Friday was better and I dunno, I only got irritated with the high school bitch. Confessions… only made me wish I was as “sturdy” as Lindsay’s character. But alas, only in my blogs am I bitchy.
Today, I helped mom finish my sis’s super stupid project. I really hate her school. I’m shutting up now. Because it’s my Alma Mater. Sabi nga nila, ang di marunong lumingon sa pinanggalingan ay di makararating sa paroroonan. And if you can’t say something nice, don’t say anything at all.
Also, today, I watched Mona Lisa Smile (Julia Roberts, Julia Stiles, Kirsten Dunst). It’s pretty ok as a film and I guess the main point of the story was quite clear. The ending part was heartbreaking but the in-betweens were fastforwardable. The ending too was a bit “this should have been the ending” kind so it’s pretty relative to the one watching. Either that, or I’m just overdrugged by my medications. I’d say give it as a Christmas gift to some uptight, moralistic spinster and maybe she’d realize something.
Last movie I watched was Fatal Attraction (Glenn Close, Dustine Hoffman). Classic really. I’m just curious if it was a really good movie. It’s pretty good, runs along the lines of Unfaithful. Or maybe the latter movie was inspired by this one. Pretty ok, though it’s not for kiddies. Watch it.
Tomorrow I’ll be getting my classcard in Soc Sci 1. I do hope the grade in there is 1.25 because, I dunno, maybe some typographical errors can ruin that grade I now I have set my mind to have. I saved the file prof sent us just in case I have a wrong grade.
Until then. Nyt.
PS. Sorry if there are funny markings in some words. I typed this in MS Word you see.

I went to school to get supposedly my classcard in Soc Sci 1. Unfortunately, it was bloody unavailable yet.
I didn’t know what time we were supposed to get our classcards but I did remember (after I stupidly erased my prof’s email) that it was today. And so, as to play safe, I went there at around 10:30 to get it.
I passed by my Eng 1 prof’s office just to check if my essay was still there. It wasn’t so I assume she took it. I just hoped she retained the grade rather than do something really dreadful to it. Btw, I found out that the English Dept. will release the classcards on Oct. 27, 9-11:30 (I think) and 1:30-4:30.
Going back, I went to the Psych Dept. and there, I found instructions as to how to get a classcard. Two guys were ahead of me and they got their classcards. I was a bit hopeful because they got theirs and maybe I would get mine but unfortunately, my prof’s classcards weren’t available yet. More so, the lady didn’t know when my classcard would arrive. Darn it…
So, I, still hopeful decided to go to SM to watch a movie, eat and maybe lounge around until PM comes. When PM comes, I’ll return to school and get my classcard.
I ate at Tokyo, Tokyo. Tried their Chicken Katsu, (pretty good, tastes like Pork Tonkatsu) ordered for the usual Potato Balls and Red Iced Tea.
Afterwards I went to the movies to watch Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow (Jude Law, Gwyneth Paltrow) because Resident Evil was farther from Tokyo, Tokyo. The movie is a mixture of Spy Kids 2, I-Robot, and basically all the other adventure/action movies you know that involve special fx like this, only that it happened sometime in the 1940’s. The movie was pretty ok, the special fx were obvious, and the plotline was a little bland. Jolie played a very small role but she kicked ass—although not Lara Crofty. I didn’t know Jude Law was good-looking. Even if he was, I am faithful to Dan Radcliffe. Lol. I just couldn’t figure out why Gwyneth wasn’t as panicky as any typical woman caught in an aircraft shootout should be. Maybe she’s brave. Or maybe she’s supposed to be brave but wasn’t good enough to convince me. Whatever. Watch it if you don’t feel like watching anything else.
I returned to UP to get my classcard but alas, on the available classcard list posted outside the admin window wasn’t my prof’s name. It says that we should check after Oct. 21 for possible release of classcards from our profs.
Oh well… at least I got to eat Chicken Katsu. And drink Red Iced Tea. And munch Potato Balls.
Tomorrow, I will know my Math class standing. A bunch of my classmates asked me to check out theirs too. No problem, part of my agenda anyway. Maybe, I’d pass by Institute of Biology for some announcements on release of classcards. And I’d pass by Psych Dept. for my classcard. Just in case.
Til then, tata!
PS.
I realized I post longer entries when I use MS Word.

Really happy because I got 3.0 in my Math 17. I feel bad for a classmate of mine who got 4.0 because her average was 1% short of the passing grade. I just kept her spirits up and told her to do better in the removal exams. Really felt good doing that, you know.
Also, I was able to get my classcard in Soc Sci 1. The guy in front of me didn’t so I guess it’s a “you get yours but I won’t get mine” or “I get mine you won’t get yours” kind of thing. As I was waiting for my Math 17 results, I went to the FC to check out some announcements. When I passed by my Eng 1 prof’s office, I saw she had put up a table of final grades and my grade was 1.5. I compared it to my other classmates’ grades and discovered it was the highest she gave to our class. The descriptive essay was graded 1.50 and my narrative got 1.25. Pretty ok, I guess. My finals was 2.50 and I expected that because I didn’t put much effort to it.
I decided to text my Eng 11 prof for my grade and found out I got 1.25 in her class. Not bad. I kidded her if I could get a 1 and she said it wasn’t possible. Fine enough. 1.25 is a notch down 1 anyway.
I do hope I get 1.25 in Bio 1 as my prof promised but I’m not expecting on that because I messed up the latest exam. Oh well.
That’s all. I’m really tired and I need to rest. My legs are killing me. Til then, tata!

Currently, I am obsessed with blog templates. I've scoured the net (at least half of it) and found some interesting ones. Unfortunately, I don't know how to use some of them and I'm so lazy to learn how to make a template. But I still saved the sort of tutorial on how to make a Tabulas template.
Tabulas, as I have found out has the least number of templates being made for by webdesigners and computer geeks. Mei drama pa kasing [!--navbar--] tag ang Tabulas so I guess people just don't like making a template for it. Ang daming para sa Blogger, Diaryland, Diary-X, Xanga and Movable Type. Converting a certain template to Tabulas is sort of tasking kaya naghahanap muna ako ng ready made na.
Anyway, the template I have now was taken from MrsJenni and she currently has around six designs to choose from. They're not that outstanding but good enough and it's a good basis for making a template. I saw other free/ linkware template sites such as: Ms Dicks; Not That Ugly (medyo faulty ang PHP niya kaya medyo nagbre-breakdown minsan); Migraine Designs; Beauticians; Lizard Designs; RPDesigns. MArami pang iba and you can find most of it at Ms-Dicks.com's Links page.
Maybe someday I'd have enough industry to make a template. Until then, I'm satisfied with my borrowed templates.
BTW, tomorrow I'll be getting my Math 17 classcard and probably checking out the date for the BIo 1 release of classcards.
Til then, tata!

Found this in my former notebook.

RESUME (Dorothy Parker)
Razors pain you
Rivers are damp
Acids stain you
And drugs cause cramp
Guns aren't lawful
Nooses give
Gas smells awful
You might as well live

A poem of mine:

SENSES
i am under you
again and again
you move with me
forget things...
do you know me
or am i part
of your forgetting?
still, would it matter
to me, i guess not
unawaringly, i am
doing the same
moving with you
physically but
my thoughts feign
you are someone else
if i close my eyes
you are someone else
i realize
your eyes are closed
would it mean
i am someone else now?
would it matter...
it wouldn't really
i close my eyes
and move again

Composed by a former classmate of mine. Aptly titled "Love".

One short word. Four short letters. Too short to express what I. Damn. Feel. For. You. But it’s four letters that make up my universe. Four letters that for me are synonymous to you. Four letters that resonate in every pore, every axiom, all space that is me until I can’t bear it anymore and I just had to scream it to the world. To the whole damn cosmos if I could. So I love you. Do you understand what I’m saying?

Have a big problem. I lack one AH and PE. I don't know how to sign up for that. Will ask my friends at UP.
Here's my sked:
Fil 40 MTh 11:30a-1:00p
Chem 1 TF 11:30a-1:00p
Philo 1 MHQ2 MTh 7:00a-8:30a
Socio 10 TF 2:30p-4:00p
Soc Sci 2 TF 1:00p-2:30p
Wasn't able to get Pan Pil 19 and any of my PE's (Pilates and Tae Kwon Do). I'll probably just take these PE's during summer.
Watched All My Life last night. Romantic but I couldn't tolerate Kristine Hermosa's kaartehan. Made me cry. Better than I expected. I expected the ending because it was the most dramatic, probable ending a writer could give for such plot. Buy the VCD and then pretend Kristine Hermosa was a good actress.
THat's all, tata!

FURY
funny how fury consumes you
how the heat gives you an extraordinary
feeling, an extraordinary energy,
an extraordinary identity so far
from the reflection in your mirror
so far from the person who
used to love your enemies
how far can fury take you?
can it drive to lie, to cheat
to deceive, to forget, to kill?
has it driven you that far?
i see it has... the blood in your hands
they flow endlessly... they haunt
they haunt you, can't you see?
why are you so angry?
you weren't like this before
you were far from this person
do you still look at yourself in the mirror?
do you still sleep soundly at night?
do you still look God in the eye?
how far will your fury take you?
so many have been sacrificed
just to sate your appetite to kill
so many lives have been destroyed
is this what you want?
when will you realize that this is not the way?
there is still time to change
listen to me please... don't let
the anger consume you... don't let it
conquer the goodness in you... don't
but i am too late, aren't I? i do not know
you anymore, do you still know yourself?
very well... feed your fury... i am ready
i understand... i forgive you

Watched a borrowed copy (from a friend) of Y Tu Mama Tambien last night. I was just intrigued with the movie that’s why I watched it. My verdict: it’s reasonably raunchy. It has a back story, some sort of moral lessons and of course, racy sex. The three main characters showed everything they had to show and lucky are the fans of any one of them because they’ve already glimpsed their favorite star’s assets. How I wish Tom Felton or Daniel Radcliffe was a porn star ::giggles::. Anyway, I didn’t see anything astounding about it although the theme was a good backdrop for the two boys’ fast lifestyle. I’d say just borrow a friend’s copy rather than buy your own because it’s not really that kind of movie wherein you’d miss half of your life not watching it.
My mom mailed my letters to Mrs. Jallores (my adviser during my Senior year whom I dearly loved and admired) this morning. I have another one in the works and I’m planning to mail it probably next week.
Tomorrow, I’ll be getting all of my classcards hopefully. I wanted to watch a movie—probably White Chicks because I miss going to the theaters. Bahala na.
On Thursday, I’ll be going to my friend Irene’s house to have an advanced birthday celebration for another friend of mine (Mary Ann Arao). I do hope all of my friends will be there. I haven’t seen them in ages. Arao promised me toma and yosi so I’m hoping on that ::heehee::.
Btw, I’m currently hooked on playing Knock ‘Em Out (unfortunately I have reached only half of Level 2), Candy Cruncher (highest so far was Level 15) and Text Twist (highest score so far was 40,000+ I think) every night in hopes of increasing my house points at Gamehouse. Go to their site (http://www.gamehouse.com); it’s got loads of free web games.
That’s all, til next time, tata!

THERESA
Come with me
Stay in my arms
Let us recline
And stare into
Each other’s eyes
Or giggle at our
Childishness
Running like children
Dancing like ballerinas
Wouldn’t you want
A time for us alone?
Oh, I have forgotten
There is no us
There never will be
Because I am not Theresa
Damn, I wish I were
Theresa
If only I were her
Fuck

SMOTHER
little by little
enwrap me
with your bare skin
your tender arms
encircling
my fragile form
your lips on
my ears, whispering
naughty, naughty
words that would
lead to a lot of
things like coffee,
a little chat and...
hold my hands, trace
the spider veins or
kiss the knuckles
up to my
elbows, to my arms,
to my face, to my lips,
to my forehead
and all these would lead
to a lot of things
like coffee, a little
chat and...
::Sigh::
how i miss
your body, jake
only worms can
appreciate it now

CENTRE
don't look at me
like you know me
so well
maybe you know
my name, my
address, my
number but
do you know
what makes me
happy, what
makes me cry,
what will
complete
my existence
you don't
so don't judge me
don't criticize me
don't shower me
with those fucked
up words
don't stain my
individuality
i don't know you
so i don't
judge you
leave me
with my business
this is my life
i make my destiny
your judgements
are pointless
because i am not
who you claim me to be
who i am is only known
to me, so fuck off
leave me be

BREAKING YOU
Knowing your name
Would be the easiest thing to do
Being your friend could come next to you
But there's one thing I'll never do
And that would be breaking you
Knowing you
Could take me years
Loving you
Will just send me to tears
Sometimes I wish it was just true
That I'll be the one to finally break you
You fall and you grope
You hang on to something unworthy
You crawl, you never spoke
About all your tragedies
I could destroy you face to facel
I could break your sweet embrace
I could do this all I know I can
But breaking you would be different
Can I have the honor to break the curse
Shatter the unwanted armor
Revive the struggling soul
Unleash the skeletons in your closet
If I don't do this, will you ever be happy?
If when you laugh, a tear falls
When you smile, a frown muffles
How I wish I could tear the face
That holds all the grimace
How I wish I could break you
And know all your truths

sorry i wasn't able to post anything yesterday... love this song currently... i borrowed the lyrics form some tabulas friend i added...

just a trivia, i've already seen this girl together with her former bandmates in Mojofly... ask Ate Joy and Ms. Torrano, they're my witnesses...

WAG NA WAG MONG SASABIHIN (Kitchie Nadal)

may gusto ka bang sabihin
ba't di mapakali
ni hindi makatingin
sana'y wag mo na itong palipasin
at subukang lutasin
sana'y sinabi mo na...

** iba'ng nararapat sa akin
na tunay kong mamahalin

* oh... wag na wag mong sasabihin
na hindi mo nadama itong
pag-ibig kong handang
ibigay kahit pa kalayaan mo

ano man ang iyong akala
na ako'y isang bituin
na walang sasambahin
di ko man ito ipakita
abot langit ang daing
sana'y sinabi mo na...
**
*

at sa gabi, sinong duduyan sa'yo...
at sa umaga, ang hangin ang hahaplos sa'yo...

oh...
oh...
oh...

wag na wag mong sasabihin
na hindi mo nadama itong
pag-ibig kong handang
ibigay kahit pa kalayaan mo...

ALWAYS
Why do I always lose?
Feeling always out of place
It's like everybody's rejecting me
Am I wrong always?
When I correct my mistakes
People judge me so badly
They blab about my errors
But was I wrong always?
Why wouldn't they give me a chance?
To show how I feel
To say what I should
To make them see how hard it is for me
I never started this
Who could have wanted it?
To be left betrayed
Feeling like you're wrong always
Sometimes I want to say
What they have done to me
Sometimes I wanted to make them
Feel like they don't belong
Feeling like they were always wrong
But I wouldn't want them to
Be left watching their days
Feeling like they were wrong always

Freshman Year
1. Section
fortitude
2. Adviser
mrs. viloria
3. Subject Taught By Adviser
english
4. Best Memory
achievements
5. Worst Memory
fight with a classmate
6. Favorite Subject
english
7. Least Favorite Subject
science
8. Class Accomplishments
basta

Sophomore Year
1. Section
justice
2. Adviser
mr. tura (tatay!)
3. Subject Taught By Adviser
science (bio)
4. Best Memory
si sir
5. Worst Memory
losing sir
6. Favorite Subject
bio, english
7. Least Favorite Subject
math
8. Class Accomplishments
andame

Junior Year
1. Section
love
2. Adviser
mr. moran
3. Subject Taught By Adviser
cl
4. Best Memory
winning first place in division presscon for copyreading and headline writing (english)
5. Worst Memory
fight ulit
6. Favorite Subject
english, trig, filipino
7. Least Favorite Subject
geom
8. Class Accomplishments
madame rin

Senior Year
1. Section
wisdom
2. Adviser
mrs. jallores (mama mia!)
3. Subject Taught By Adviser
english
4. Best Memory
ala e
5. Worst Memory
madame
6. Favorite Subject
english, stat, accounting, calculus
7. Least Favorite Subject
filipino
8. Class Accomplishments
madame uli

High School
1. Best Thing About It
friends, barkada
2. Worst Thing About It
pag sa first section ka, pressure, intriga, competition
3. Canteen Price
mahal ang dupang
4. Memorable Line By A Teacher
you can never tell- mr. moran
5. Rule You Don't Like
hay naku. where do i begin?
6. Weirdest Rule
everything is weird
7. Comments?
mahirap, masarap, pero kayang kaya and assured na unforgettable ang hs layf

SEEMINGLY
I saw it when you cried over me
After I broke up with you
Though you know I wouldn't want t
So why are you in her arms, laughing?
As if nothing ever happened between us
As if there was never any us
I'd like to think today was a dream
Coz I just saw you kissing her the way you did to me
As if she was me
As if there was never any me in your life
I saw you when you suffered
Crying like hell over our break-up
So why is it that she seems to be replacing
Everything I tried to be in your heart
As if she was the first
As if she would be the last
I wanted to touch you when you called my name
Every night when you dreamt of me
Coz they were happy memories
As if I never left you
As if it was a phase I went through
Then I realized you won't feel my embraces
You won't hear my words nor calls
Coz I'm just part of your memory
One of those you treasure dearly
How I wish I never left
Who is wish I could kiss you
As if forever was tonight
As if I never died